Yesterday was my two year anniversary with my boyfriend Steven. It's hard to believe it's only been two years. I feel like I've known him for ever and it's hard to even think back to how life was before i met him. We moved in together within a week of knowing each other. Most people thought I was crazy, including myself, but I just knew in my heart it was something i wanted/needed to do. Never in my life had I felt as comfortable, safe and loved by a guy before. We've struggled some, moved a few times ,Went from shitty job to shitty job, had bad experiences with roommates, but in the end we always make it through and we've always done it together. He's taught me how to be more independent, and helped me see that I Can take care of myself. He is my best friend.

In May the lease on our apartment was up and I asked my mom if we could move in with her because she was moving as well. I figured it would help her and help us as far as bills go, and Steven got his CDL so he could drive trucks cross country and I wouldn't be alone when he was gone for weeks at a time. I thought our relationship would just get better. Unfortunately in june steven found out he had dibates..which was only suppose to keep him out of work for a few weeks if that and now it's September and he Still hasnt found a job...I had quit my job at the laundry mat because I was working 60 hour a week, I was going to be my aunts Nanny and with him working i didn't need to work that many hours and i could be with my family, but unfortunately after a month of working for my aunt she got layed off from her job.. so basically all summer both of us have been out of a job..He gets a small check every week from unemployment and I work about 15 hours a week as a PASS worker for my Autistic cousin, but its just not cutting it.. My moms out of full time work as well,Only working a few hours a week though the same agency i do and us not being able to give her basically any money has put this whole house in chaos.

On top of all the money and job bullshit we've been fighting so much.. We get on each others nerves constantly, we bicker, i feel like even our sex life is starting to suffer. This is not us and I hate it.
Is this something that happens to every couple after living together this long? Will it pass? Do we just spend to much time together? Or is this the start of the end of my relationship? I hope not but lately i just don't know..

I am growing older, waiting in this line.Some of life's best lessons are learned at the worst times...